LeBron proposes to Savannah!

Great! I have nothing negative to say, but so many women are saying, "About time" and all that negative jazz. My take on it is that they are young and she could have waited FAR longer and had FAR more children and married a man FAR more inferior (like so many women do...IF they get married at all). So until YOU leave an NBA player because he hasn't yet proposed to YOU, you can't comment on Savannah, Boo.

Congrats to the happy couple!

It's 2012!!

My 2011 Recap

Instead of recapping what celebs and public figures did in 2011, I think I'll recap what I did in 2011...because you don't KNOW me. :-)

If I had to grade it, I'd say 2011 was a B, maybe a B-, year.

The greatest achievement of 2011? FINALLY finishing the first draft of a self help book that I've been working on for the past 4 years. I just wrapped it up and I am flying hiiiigh. Do you know how great it feels to start a project, research a project, work your heart out on a project, and FINISH a project? Words can't describe that feeling of accomplishment. I found my passion and worked hard and happily at it. If you don't have a passion, PLEASE get one ASAP because it will make all the difference in the world.

The second greatest achievement, or blessing, in 2011 is that I stopped smoking ... everything. God did this for me. I prayed and prayed and PRAYED and He made me allergic to smoke. This was an area that I'd tried to conquer for years...many years. And finally, one day He just stepped in and said, "Enough." And it was done. I can't give my will power credit for this blessing. I have to give my Higher Power all of the credit. Amen and Yes Lawd!

The third greatest achievement was staying on my job despite wanting to walk out after being told I couldn't work from home and living through a complete office renovation, which boils down to having to work in an open office environment. I'd never worked in such an environment and it's counterproductive, if anything, but, I'm used to it now and I'm hanging in there until I can work for myself. 2012 will be the year.

Now, for the bad.

I love my son with all of my heart; God knows how much I love this near 16 year old but he is a handful - hence, the fact that I gave birth one time and one time only. He's active (not hyper active), headstrong, loves rap, doesn't want his hair cut (he makes sure he gets an edge up though, thank God!,) and he's been in 3 schools this year alone. No, he doesn't get in fights, but  he has a hard time following instructions and loves to do whatever he wants to do in school. He couldn't focus at Lamar so I had to transfer him to a hood school. I HAD to transfer him because he got kicked out. Well, he's doing fine at the hood school and I'm convinced it's because the big black male teachers don't play that. So, while this year started out horribly, it leveled off a few months ago and his grades are good and he doesn't pass up his classes for hanging out in the halls. They don't play that at Worthing.

Another disappointment in 2011 was my lack of time spent in an actual church. I attended church no more than 7 times this year and I'm probably exaggerating. I read my bible, listen to gospel music, and watch TV pastors, but I haven't been tithing as I should and I haven't been in a church house as I should be. I am changing that in 2012. I must.

Lastly, I've gained about 20 pounds. Some days I could pass for a pregnant woman. I caught myself rubbing my stomach the other day in the grocery store, not even much caring if someone thought I was pregnant. I'm sure they did and I just ran with it. If they would have asked when the baby is due, I probably would have thrown out a date 3 months away. I will work on this weight thing in 2012 because a whole new wardrobe is NOT an option.

Other than that, this year has been pretty good. I'm almost 40 and on track. I've been playing catch up for the past 5 years (got married, got a raise, bought a home and new cars, and finished my book). I am nowhere NEAR the person I was on my 34th birthday. Whew!

2012 is going to be a BEAST.

How was your 2011?

Blogs and Such

Christmas is over and I'm glad. I enjoyed spending time with my extended family, but I'm pretty introverted and there's only so much togetherness I can take. Give me a book, a PC, the television, my husband, the kids up stairs out of the way and happy -- and space to write in peace -- and I'm GOOD.

So, I'm at work and the office is about 20% full. Perfect! This is the absolute perfect time to be at work. I don't mind the quiet because there's always a flurry of activity going on inside this brain of mine. I'll go on vacation next week when the kids are back in school and everyone's back on the road. Am I weird for that? If so, whaaaaaaaaaaaaaatever! :-)

I've been surfing the internet a lot lately, and I just wanted to share what I've been reading. Blogs, articles, sites, etc.

Food Gawker - I love this foodie website. So many pics and recipes.

Major Must Haves - This woman simply has it going ON. This is a fashion website where I just look at the pictures and get tips and advice on where to find outfits and how to dress. I'm not a shopper, so I need all of the help I can get!

Nami - Mental Illnesses - I'm working on the last couple of chapters of the self help book for women: Healthy on all levels. So, I've had to read up on mental health. I think it's pretty interesting.

Dreams of Life - This is a documentary about a 41 year old woman who dies and no one notices...for nearly 3 years. I've read so many comments such as: "oh this could be me!", but unless you're an old recluse, this SHOULDN'T be you. Live life. Have close relationships with people. Period.

99 Crazy Moments of 2011 - I like looking at the year in review.

50 Best Websites of 2011

Time Magazine - I just LOVE Time mag. The pictures, the lists, the articles. Great mag!

Life Magazine - See above.

Washington Post - "Being a Black Man" - I mean, since I'm not one, I thoroughly enjoyed this.

Top Documentary Films - Watch free documentaries online.

Crime Library - If you love stories of crime, this is the spot to be.

Foot Binding - UGH!!! - I'll never look at "Lotus Flower Bomb" the same again.

Is Beyonce Really Pregnant?

With a heavy heart, I have to say NO. I feel like a traitor to one of THE prettiest and most amazing performers in the world. But, Beyonce has me giving her the side eye with this pregnancy fiasco. When she “announced” her pregnancy at the VMAs in August I was sooo happy for her. Not as excited as Kanye West for sure, but still, when she rubbed that bump on stage I felt like, “Yeah! She did that!”

And then, I saw this picture and a little alarm went off. 

Her stomach just didn’t look like there was a baby inside of it. She just looked very full...of Popeyes. I know a pushed out stomach when I see one.

Her stomach didn’t have that roundness that it had in this picture, taken on the red carpet of the VMAs just a few days before the bikini picture:

My mother initially thought that Beyonce probably was pregnant, but wore padding to make her stomach appear bigger or maybe she even had some kind of protective device over her stomach. Ok….

Since then, I started observing her bump like a hawk. I saw all of the pictures of her out and about (never going to or coming from a doctor’s office, mind you) and sometimes her bump wasn't visible at all. I know that clothes can sometimes make a pregnant stomach appear smaller than it is and I tried to give Jay-Z’s wife the benefit of the doubt. Then BOOM. She had the “Sunday Night” interview in Australia and her stomach literally sunk, deflated, collapsed. Oh baby!

But, I'm getting ahead of myself.

Timeline of Beyonce’s Pregnancy

Recently, Beyonce presented a behind the scenes video of “Countdown” (see further down) and in it she said that it was September 23^rd and she was 6 months pregnant. This date is what my timeline is based on.

April 2011 = 1 month pregnant

Ok, no one shows at 1 month, but are they able to do all that Beyonce was able to do in her first trimester?

She hit up Disney Land…and rode the roller coaster.

She did a grueling photo shoot in Paris.

May 2011 = 2 months pregnant

She performed “Girls (Rule the World) for Oprah’s farewell show.

She went to the Met Ball with Jay-Z

She performed on “American Idol”.

June 2011 = 3 months pregnant

She performed in France on June 20^th.

Here she is on June 27^th on “Piers Morgan”. She hadn't told the public about her pregnancy yet, but she hinted.

She did a photoshoot for “W” magazine.

She gave a concert in Gastenbury!

She performed on the “X Factor”.

July 2011 = 4 months pregnant

She performed on "Good Morning America". She wore clothes to hide her bump, but why? There’s nothing to see here folks!

She performed at the Oxegen Festival in Ireland. Covering up again…for no reason.

Here she is performing at T in the Park in Scotland.

(Keep in mind Mama Tina did say Beyonce had morning sickness in her 1^st trimester and I’m not showing ALL that she did in her first trimester. Your girl was busy promoting "4".)

She performed on “Jimmy Fallon” (it was taped and showed a few months later).

She also performed on “The View”.

She did a spread for "Complex" magazine.

August = 5 months pregnant.

Remember those 4 nights at Roseland? August 14, 16, 18 and 19

Yes, I know she wore a dress with a flap on it and she didn't dance as much as she normally dances in concert, but that flap meant nothing, zero, nada and she DID dance her butt off on a few songs.

FINALLY, she showed us that she’s pregnant at the VMAs.

A few days before, however, she filmed the “Party” video.

Washboard.

September 23 = 6 months

Then, she did this behind the scenes video in some closed room with Julius probably dutifully holding the camera (because Jay-Z has been keeping his distance). She said it was filmed on September 23^rd at 6 months pregnant. “You can’t tell I’m pregnant from the front, but oh when I turn to the side!”

Well, here she is from the side in the "Countdown" video, shot in September. Where is that stomach, girlfriend? I know you aren't wearing a girdle and possibly giving your baby brain damage? Can a girdle even MUCH squash a baby to that degree?

Beyonce's "Countdown" video – The Original, not the Altered, version

Here she is at the House of Dereon Fashion Show.  That flash of skin looks an awful lot like whatever she wore under her clothing during the screening of the Roseland DVD with the Associated Press (more on that further down).

Now, here she is at the Torey Burch store opening in September. How does a 6 month pregnant woman wear this? And check her out in the mirror “from the side”. Huh? No hell.

October = 7 months

Now, here’s the big OOPS! Her stomach literally collapses on the set of “Sunday Night”. There’s no getting around this. 

You can find the link to the interview anywhere on the web. It's EVERYWHERE.

Never one to shy away from controversy, she stepped out in a tight blue dress the very next day. Bump in full effect. What is that band around the top of the stomach though?

A few days later, that round stomach is barely there.

November= 8 months

So now her stomach is huge.

She danced at a Jay-Z concert.

She displayed a very awkward looking bump with Nicki Minaj at a Victoria Secret show in early November. For some reason, her face is super swollen in this picture and she's looking like Jay-Z. Her face is never seen like this again. (Too many fat injections?)

Here’s another instance of her deflating baby bump, during the “Live at Roseland” screening. She's talking to the Associated Press and some “super fans”. There are a few things that don’t look quite right during this screening. #1, she’s wearing a black bra, right? Well, what is that beige looking contraption that slips up just as she gets comfortable? Not only does the beige thing show, but her bump deflates at the same time.

Notice that the video below stops at 2:41…right before the beige thing becomes visible and her bump deflates. The good folks at the Associated Press clipped this video short so that Beyonce could save face. Boy, wouldn’t you like to see the rest of that video…! But thankfully, we do have the photographs that show what happened after the 2:41 mark.

Also, why is she wearing that long, long dress and why is all of that gold junk covering the stomach? WHAT IS UNDER THAT DRESS, BEYONCE GISELLE KNOWLES-CARTER? LOL She just HAD to come out of the house to promote that DVD. 

Now, she’s shown in full bloom, poolside with Jay-Z and the fam. Why is she wearing so many clothes at the pool? And what is that thing that’s supposed to be a stomach? What is that darkness on the BUMP?

December = 9 months

It’s December now and the charade is almost up. I know she can’t wait until the surrogate delivers that baby so she can finally stop wearing that dreadful bump.

Here’s the "20/20" interview with Katie Couric. In this video I noticed #1, Beyonce races down the stairs to greet Katie, #2, she moves Katie’s hand to a safe spot on her stomach TWICE. It was so noticeable that Katie actually asks Beyonce is it OK for her to touch her stomach. She replies “of course”, but she STILL moves Katie’s hand to a safe spot. #3, Beyonce plops down in the swivel chair in her office AND leans forward when she talks about “the baby”. That girl better stop forgetting that she's wearing a stomach! I'm thinking she must never wear it at home.

And doggone it, her stomach isn’t nearly as full in this interview as it was in the blue pool ensemble. Her face  isn’t nearly as swollen as it was in the picture with Nicki Minaj, either.

Girl, come on. Let’s keep it real.

Eddie Long Gives Us The Business...

...not quite -- but I know a Queen when I see one.

Check it. Eddie puts hands on his hip and almost comes out @ 1:26. The hand on the hip is just too juicy for me. Then, right after that, as if the news editor totally agrees with me, a flaming member of his church comments about how giving the Bishop is.



no.soap.opera.can.write.this.storyline!

What we have here ladies and gentleman is some messy punk ish combined with pedophilia and deep hatred for ones own sexuality. But, keep in mind, the basis of this is PUNK ISH.

Follow me if you can: Eddie Long - who I will shall not call a Bishop - is, if not a pedophile, a gay man who pastors a huge congreation in ATL. I've noticed that many of his parishoners are gay too. That's not a bad thing, but it is a gay pastor's playground.

Eddie Long has not denied any allegations. Eddie Long is still wearing a jherri curl toupee with much pride. Eddie Long is still rocking the muscle shirt and vest and he almost gave us two snaps and a "thank you very much". You don't understand what is happening before you!

How far is Eddie willing to go? He already asked the congreagation to, basically, ride with him; in the clip he says that "God can handle Eddie Long". Well, ok - God can, but in the meantime -- who wants a DL pastor who marches against homosexuality before church and bangs little Jamal in the pastors study after? And what about all of the double talk he's giving the church members? Really? This is the expectation for a pastor? If the allegations are true, this "bishop" needs to jump down from his super high horse and get it together. He shouldn't have time to lead a flock of people to wherever he's trying to lead them.

If no one takes a stand, and if everyone keeps drinking that filthy kool-aid he's passing around, I will bet that Eddie Long is going to be the first OUT mega preacher. That anyone of sound mind would accept his leadership, at this point, is very sad. One must read the bible for him/herself and know exactly what they should expect and demand from a pastor. Not everyone is called for a reason. And even the called ones are sometimes re-called.

If I were blogging for comments, I'd Plaxico Burress my hand! - Random thought.

Seal (with Heidi Klum) - Secret

So what do you think about Seal's new video with his wife? Too risque?



The Good:
Seal is probably an excellent lover
The song is beautiful
Heidi has natural breasts
Visually captivating

The Bad:
Too intimate
Seal's nails
Seal's unattractive

Seal and Heidi love to display their affection in public, and with this latest offering they tip right over the line. But I'm glad. Even though the soft porn tends to make my stomach churn, I can't help loving it. Secrets is a tenderly strong song, and I'm definitely feeling it.

I once dated an extremely unattractive man. I'm talking Biz Markie-is-cute ugly. But he had a fantastic personality and made me laugh. Of course, he turned out to be trifling and didn't worship the ground I walked on so we didn't last too long. Our situation was nothing like Seal's and Heidi's.

Still, that ugly dude captured my heart and my mind for a while — but he never quite stopped being ugly. Sure, I'd look deeply into his eyes with love and affection, but if I dared gaze beyond his dirty brown pupils to that face, the mood was KILT. You know how your heart jumps when you see your handsome man walking up? Well, I never got that jump. My heart would beat once we started laughing and talking, but it didn't flutter upon sight. I wonder... if he had been as thoughtful and successful as Seal... would I have grown to love his scars and life wounds?

Now, consider that Heidi is belived to be one of the most beautiful women in the world... and she's a SUPER model... whose loaded ...with her own money. She's practically a goddess in the eyes of many men. And she's with Seal? We can be certain that love's sweet fragrance is in the air, but I wonder if Heidi ever thinks in the back of her mind, as I did with my ex, "You shooooole is uuugly."...?

Just a thought. Love is beautiful no matter how you look; I sound shallow, blah blah blah.

Eddie Long Can't Make Me Lose My Faith!

Let me start by saying WHOA.

Whoa!
Whoa!!
Whoa!!!

I’ve been reading and hearing everyone’s comments about the Eddie Long situation and I’m going to address the ones that interest me the most.

If the accusations are true, how will it affect the Black Church?

#1: The accusations look mighty true. #2: Shouldn’t we be asking, “How will it affect Black Christians?” If a man can make a Christian waver in his faith to the point that he loses his faith, I think that man didn’t have enough faith to begin with. Unless I see Jesus, himself, sending inappropriate spandex snapshots to the kiddies - I’m good; my belief is intact. Yes, I pass judgment on the Bishop, but I know that this is his struggle, and ultimately, it’s between him, God, and the boys he ruined. I hope his parishioners will pray for themselves and continue to believe. I hope they will understand that man let them down; God’s commandments remain standing and people still follow them all around the world.

Maybe God's allowing this to happen because He wants to blow the lid off corruption in the Black Church. Maybe He's fed up with how the Black Church hides and ignores abuse and downright evil. The Black Church might want to stop worshiping the pastor and pray for DISCERNMENT regarding the pastor. God should be your Father and your Leader. Know HIM.

But it can’t be true. He’s married!

Girl, bye.

Why do women think that married men can't possibly cheat on their wives with other men? In 2010? When the DL man is a huge problem within the Black community? It’s almost as if women don’t even know men and they can’t tell a potential punk from a bonefide hetero male. I need women to pay more attention.

If all of this is true, those boys were the age of consent. They knew what they were doing! They just want some money!

Stop being so ignorant.

It’s alleged that the teens (possibly 30 boys?) were “groomed” by the Bishop since the age of 14 or 15. He picked the most vulnerable boys of the lot – just like predators do. When a kid is such an impressionable age, and when he places trust in a much needed father figure, anything is possible. Have some compassion. This man turned those boys out and manipulated them in the worst way.

I have a question -- Who didn’t suspect this? Eddie frequently wears bedazzled velvet dresses/robes. He unashamedly wears a toupee. 90% of his wardrobe consists of size small muscle shirts. He doesn't come across as annointed AT ALL. His sermons always lead to nowhere. He spent way too much time with teenage boys and too little time with his wife. The signs were there. Who didn’t know this crusty hip hop preacher loved the fellas?

The Complexity of a Woman

Do you want to know why I can't keep up with this blog? Simply because I'm a living, breathing, doing everything, complex WOMAN.

The load is heavy! The rewards are rich! The time is limited!

I sit here now thinking of all that I should be doing, but am not. In an effort to go easy on myself, every now and then I think of the productive times and keep it moving.

Thank God for a flexible work schedule, but I still put in 40 hours a week, regardless of the actual hours I sit in the brick and mortar building. I work. I think. I analyze. I surf the web, and try to think of things to share on Facebook. I live. I love. I make lists. I lose lists. I chill. I clean. I cook. I read. I chill.

I chill.

In shame, I bow my head and confess that I haven't worked on my book in 2 months. Sure, I record and write notes here and there, but I'm not on it. But hey - I just moved in a new home, it's summertime, and I can only do so much.

Excuses.

And, then, my side business has dried up because I can't devote the proper time to it. DashCo. Editing Services is not dead, just on a sabbatical. But, I thank God tremendously for having a busy mind. I may not be putting pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard), but I think I know what I need to do, and eventually I'll get it all done in between trying to be a healthier, better, even happier, wife and mother...and employee...and entrepreneur. You get it: I's busy!

Here's a shout out to sistas all over who get up everyday and make it happen. Those of us who are also night owls because we don't want to miss anything. Big Ups to the Superwomen we are... Of course, our celebration wouldn't be complete without a little mood music. Let me know which ones I missed in the comments section.

Gloria Gayner - I Will Survive (Live)


Alicia Keys - Superwoman (Live) (no matter what, it's a FAB song!)


Lisa Stansfield - All Woman (Live)


Whitney Houston & CeCe Winans - Count on Me (Live)


Destiny's Child - Independent Woman (Live)


Karyn White - Superwoman


Christina Aguilera ft. Lil Kim - Can't Hold Us Down


Helen Reddy - I Am Woman (y'all don't know nothin' bout Helen!)


Janet Jackson - Control


Diana Ross - I'm Coming Out


Mc Lyte - Lyte as a Rock


Queen Latifah and Monie in the Middle - Ladies First


Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Wanna Have Fun


Eve - Who's That Girl


Ne-Yo and Jamie Foxx - She Got Her Own

Love and Hate

I don’t think I’ve ever done this before. Wow. I’m not a narcissist.

Loves:

• Peaceful landscapes
• Interesting/weird/different/unique people
• Tiger Woods Golf (Wii)
• Plain toast
• Ice
• Bacon
• Lasagna
• Competition
• Strong and respectful women
• Wild and crazy women
• Tall men
• Beautiful smiles
• Fit, taught bodies with muscles that don’t bulge
• All skin tones. ALL.
• One on one conversations
• Nas
• Beyonce
• Honesty
• Real hair
• Intelligence
• Common sense carriers
• Words on paper
• Solitude
• A good party
• Money
• Soulful, deep ballads
• Kindness
• Erykah Badu
• Yolanda Adams
• Tyrese
• Gospel music
• Looking into my husband's eyes when we're in a crowd
• Jesus
• My family
• Beaches/swimming/the pool
• New restaurants/places/things
• Paying bills
• Traveling
• Late night drives
• Planning
• True murder mysteries
• Survivors
• Love

Hates:

• Talk when there should be silence
• Silence when there should be talk
• Mayo (yuck, gag, gross!)
• Greedy people
• Rude people
• Lazy people
• Superficial people
• Cats
• Caterpillars
• Music that’s overly sexual and tacky (70% of R. Kelly’s stuff)
• Naps
• How accessible celebrities are now
• How influential celebrities are to children and weak adults
• Violence, especially against women and children 
• Being wrong
• Lou Rawls
• Uncomfortable change
• Going to movie theaters or places that aren’t new
• Al Jarreau
• Public restrooms (ewww!)
• Criticism
• To eat at other people’s homes if they have pets and don’t keep a spotless home
• Racists who aren’t black
• The way I procrastinate
• Hate

Ode to '80s Hip Hop!

My good friend Leslie stopped by for Martinis and Spades the other night and cold shocked me speechless ('80s lingo intended). Leslie's only 30, but until LAST NIGHT we seemed to recall the same moments in history. Then suddenly the name KRS-1 came up and in an utter state of confusion she asked, "What's that? A who?"

My sleeping husband jumped up in disbelief. I thought she was kidding. I joked around and mimicked KRS-1: "Who am I? I AM HIP HOP [insert random big words, real and made up]. I thought she'd laugh and confess to knowing The Philosopher.

Nope.

"What about Whodini? Grandmaster Flash?"

Another blank stare. "I think I heard of..." Blank stare.

This is for you, Leslie: A brief look at the '80s hip hop that I listened to (and loved).

Whodini - 5 Minutes of Funk (1984)

This is the first rap song I remember listening to and reeeally liking. I loved Whodini.

Whodini - I'm a Ho (1986)

Oh my God, I would never listen to this around my parents! Loved it.

Kurtis Blow - If I Ruled The World (1985)

Never been a Kurtis Blow fan, but he was one of the very first rappers I remember.

Grandmaster Flash - The Message

Classic HIP HOP.

Fat Boys - Fat Boys (1984)

Funny and fat, yes sir... Look up thier "Human Beat Box" song.

MC Shan - Left Me Lonely (1987)

Love it!!! This is the way to make a rap love song, Plies.

Ms. Melodie - Live on Stage (1984)

Click here to see the video.
Understand, KRS-1's ex-wife SLAAAYED IT!!

UTFO - Roxanne, Roxanne (1985)

Jammin!

Boogie Boys - Fly Girl (1985)

Gold nails!! I had one. *smile*

De La Soul - Me, Myself and I (1989)

Who doesn't remember De La Soul? It's late 80s, but I had to include!

And to the man who sparked this post...

KRS-1 - My Philosphy (1987)


KRS-1 - Criminal Minded


Eric B. and Rakim - I Aint No Joke


Of course, I couldn't leave out the best rap of all time!
Eric B. and Rakim - Paid In Full (1987)

Mashonda Gives First Post Divorce Interview to Vibe

...and I loved every minute of it. Loved it!!!!

Before reading the interview, I'd written some jive junk criticizing Mashonda for talking about Swizz and Alicia still. But I had to delete all that crap because baaaaaby Mashonda gave the number 2 interview of all time, second only to Whitney's infamous "Crack Is Wack" delight!

I completely understand that Mashonda had to GET A FEW THINGS STRAIGHT AND CLEAR A FEW THINGS UP! I hope Alicia reads and learns.

A few pearls:

I know it was very important for you to sit down with Alicia if she was going to be around your son. Safe to assume that happened?
When I wrote her that Twitter letter everybody wanted to say things like ‘Oh, what do you need to meet her for? It's not her problem, it's Swizz's." I'm like, ‘You have a kid, go through what I went through and then talk to me.’ I'm not having my son around anybody I don't know. I don't give a shit who you are and how much money you have and what management he's going to be under when he visits you. I need to see you and I need you to see how serious I am about him. And that's what happened. We had to sit down, and I told her how I felt. I didn't mention anything else, it was all about my son and it was fine after that. I'm not going sit and talk to [them] about what happened between the three of us. This is about my son.

When did this meeting finally take place?
It took a good year and a half. I think that only happened in March.

How was Alicia’s demeanor?
She just listened.

This all sounds like a really awkward gathering…
It wasn't awkward; I wouldn't have done it if I wasn't ready. I said what I had to say as a mom. It was a whole sit down dinner. So you know how intimate that is. There are certain things we have to do as women in order to move forward. Love does not happen like this. Love doesn’t involve hurt, lies, or destructing anybody else's soul.

Very true, have you received an apology from either one of them yet?
Nope.

Surprising?
No, because I honestly feel like they think they didn't do anything wrong. I don't care about their apology. As long as he’s a great dad to my son and she's a good step-mom, they don't have to worry about apologizing because they will never understand or care about the pain I went through. That was a big thing at first, I felt like nobody was respecting me. He's not respecting me, she's not respecting me. [But] then I had to say, ‘Fuck my ego, because this can't be an ego thing. If it is I'm going to fall down and die.’ People feel that they are so happy and they are so in love, but what really happens is that real love does not come from a foundation when you hurt somebody else. Love does not happen like this. Love doesn’t involve hurt, lies, or destructing anybody else's soul.

If real love isn’t born from infidelity, are you saying it wouldn’t shock you if their soon-to-be marriage ended in divorce?
I don't think about it, it's not my concern. I don't think about them anymore. If there was no little boy involved in this, I would’ve probably moved to another country by now. I've thought about going to live in Europe, but I can't because his dad is here. I don't like confusion, I don't like drama, I don't like none of that stuff. I would have left before the divorce was even final.

Full story here

She'll never be a star (music is yuck), but she definitely has my respect.

The Dream Dips on Christina M.

Like, really, what the hell? Frolicking on the beach with the hired help? For real?

It's a fact that Christina dumped her boyfriend (Cool? Dre?) for The Dream, but who cares? Karma doesn't necessarily say that dumping a boyfriend = cheating on a wife. I don't care if Christina is fake, a gold digger, or the second coming of Mel Gibson — The Dream and his wack ass CD, Love Tit-tays, didn't have to do the girl like that.

Are they doing this for publicity? Not hardly. These celebrity marriages are built on the flimsiest foundations, and they tear apart everyday. It's a shame, really.

I have a pretty good idea why The Nightmare showed out, too. I'd bet that it's the same reason he dumped Nivea: Christina wasn't hot anymore. Come on ladies, a lot of us have been there: young, hot, and desirable until a man impregnates us and forgets that we were his ultimate come up.

Idiot.